Wheel of Life Coalition

I grew up in a small Southern Kentucky community stuffed full of child abuse which for many years I thought was normal. I did not really become aware of the difference between my childhood and other girls until I began spending the night with friends during my teen years.

It was then I found out that not every girl had to lie awake during the night listening to the footsteps outside her bedroom door nor live in fear of being molested by someone in the house who was suppose to be protecting her.

Because I was a wounded hurting soul, I sought out love from all the wrong sources. I smoked dope and drank during my teen years hoping to numb the pain I was seething with inside.

I also slept with many boys thinking that I could find love and acceptance from them if I did what they wanted. After all, I had grown up with the belief that my main purpose was to satisfy men.

I now realize my destructive behavior was common given the abuse and trauma I had endured. Even so the drugs, alcohol and sex ate away at my already wounded soul.

I have experienced many forms of child abuse. Part of my family was also involved in satanism which I was being groomed to be a high priestess. There is very little I did not experience in my childhood. Thankfully, I have never been burnt with anything. I have experienced many forms of verbal or emotional abuse, physical abuse as well as sexual abuse.

       I have walked a long path towards healing and freedom from the effects of the horrible abuse I suffered. I used to be quick to scream if I heard a loud noise or if someone walked up behind me and startled me.

I used to walk with a slight bend of my back because of the intense pain. I was not able to form lasting healthy relationships. I had very little hope for a healthy future. I felt eaten up with guilt, shame, condemnation and depression.

I was constantly afraid those I loved would leave me so was so very clingly. I had many physical problems always dealing with this pain or that pain.

I have fought against fear and deception. I've battled unworthiness and low self esteem. I have struggled with problems brought on my over eating and having an unhealthy weight, an unhealthy body. I have battled generational curses.

I have had to grow fiercely determined that I was NOT going to continue living like that. I have gone for counseling and prayer many times determined to find a better healthier way in life.

I have had to stand on my belief in Jesus to see me set free in Him. I've sought on purpose everything the Word says I'm to have in Jesus. Am still working on that but determined to gain it all!

I am a much happier person than I've ever been. I have purpose in life. I am content with my life. I have peace like I've never known. I love my life.

I have a great husband and family. I have purpose in my life now in reaching out to others who may be hurting from abusive issues.  I have purpose now in loving who I am and those around me. I am excited to be sharing the Word of God with others.

God is good! He has blessed me and brought me freedom and healing through His Son, Jesus Christ.

Please join me on this path to healing and freedom. Please don't allow anyone or anything to steal from you any longer. Contact me, share your story with me. I am here to listen to you. I do care.

 My Past

Abuse has always been a part of my life. In childhood it was a constant companion. I would listen closely at night listening for footsteps coming towards my room.  I never knew when my grandmother would have one of her mind-breaks and go off on a rampage with her abuse of me. Other family members were also a constant part of my abuse even to the point of bringing other men in to enjoy their sickness.

There were many times I was locked in a cold, damp celler to think of my actions for being a 'bad girl'. Or be tied naked to my own bed as 'surgery to get the devil outta me was preformed'.

Because I hadn't gained the necessary healing I contributed to an unhealthy marriage.

When an individual is a victim of child abuse and enters into a relationship without the benefit of Godly healing, that new relationship will often experience continued abuse in various forms. 

No one deserves to be abused! 

However  God is my strong provider! He is my protector!!!

[Hubby, Ron and Pamela]

I am now married to my Moses!!

God has blessed me with a man who has helped me to realize not all men are put here on Earth to hurt and abuse women. My husband, Ron, is a tremendous blessing.

We are blessed to have two adult children, Jeff who is  Ron's son, is married to Destiny. They have JC, and a brand new baby, Jasper. We are so very excited for the four of them.

There's Jon, my son, his wife, Crystal and their two children, our sweet grandbabies, Jacob and Harlie.

We are indeed blessed to have such a wonderful family. And I am blessed to be able to continue learning how to forgive and let go of the past to enjoy our present.